The documentary the whole world is talking about is here! If you don’t have HBO, no worries…check the full video below: On how she views music:
On her relationship with her dad:
Artists put out an album then they put out a new one. People don’t even listen to a body of work anymore. When I first started out, there was no internet, people taking pictures of you and putting your personal life or exploiting your personal life as entertainment. I think people are so brainwashed. You get up in the morning, you click on the computer and you see all these pictures and all you think of is thepicture and the image that you see all day, every day. You don’t see the human form. When Nina Simone put out music, you loved her voice. That’s what she wanted you to love. That was her instrument. You didn’t get brainwashed by her day-to-day life, and what her child was wearing and who she was dating, all of these things that is not your business. It shouldn’t influence the way you listen to the voice and the art, but it does. I always battle with how much do I reveal about myself. How do I keep my humility. How do I keep my spirit and the reality and how do I continue to be generous to my fans and to my craft and how do I stay current? And how do I stay soulful? It is the battle of my life.
I’m feeling very empty because of the relationship with my dad. I’m so fragile at this point and I feel like my soul has been tarnished. Life is unpredictable but I feel like I had to move on and not work with my dad. I don’t care if I don’t sell one record. It’s bigger than the record, it’s bigger than my career. I think one of the biggest reasons I felt like it was time for me to manage myself is because at some point, you need your support system and you need your family. When you are trying to have an every day conversation with your parents, you have to talk about scheduling, you have to talk about your album, performing and touring. It’s just too stressful and it affects your relationship. I needed boundaries and I think my dad needed boundaries. It’s really easy to get confused with this world that’s your job that you live and breathe all day every day and you don’t know when to turn it off. You need a break. I needed a break. I needed my dad. [When asked: Did you get your dad back?] No. It was hard. I had to sacrifice my relationship with my dad. It was a stressful, sad, difficult time but I had to let go.
On the surrogate rumors:
There is actually a lot of people that believes this rumor and it’s crazy. I guess there are some crazy celebrities in this world so we get a bad rep but to think that I would be able to be that vain. I respect mothers and women so much and to be able to experience bringing a child into this world. If you are lucky and fortunate enough to experience that, I would never ever take that for granted. It is the most powerful thing you can ever do in your life. And especially after losing a child, the pain and trauma from that, it just makes it mean so much more to get an opportunity to bring life into the world. It’s something that you have to respect. People should have boundaries, there is certain things you shouldn’t play around with and a child, you don’t play around with that.
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